Thanksgiving

Well, I must admit this is a post I did not want to make nor did I think I was going to have to make. At my nine week check up my doctor could not find a heart beat, but this can often happen early in pregnacy so he did some blood tests and another ultrasound and confirmed it was a miss carriage. This came as such a complete shock because I was so sick and my symptoms never tappered off at all, so I was so horribly sick when I should of been feeling better. My doctor said it was a missed miss carriage and my body never registered that it was a miss carriage. Since the miss carriage happened a while earlier we sheduled a surgery to get everything cleaned out so I could feel better and move on. I must say it had been a crazy eleven weeks full of sickness and emotion, but I feel that I got pregnant for a reason and it is all in the lords hands and I need to have faith to better understand it.
I am very grateful for my wonderful husband who took care of me every day and shows me his strength and faith everyday. I am grateful for my loving family for their love and support. And for my friends who helped take care of me, brought me dinner and cleaned my house, when I was stuck in bed. Although the thought of getting pregnant again makes me excited it also makes me feel nervous. There is always that fear that it will happen again and I am not looking forward to getting so sick again. My my body needs some time to recover and I am going to put my trust in the lord.